Summer's Almost Here! {{Jazzie's B'Day Recap}}

As you know, I'm currently NY thuggin' for the weekend, and so far it's been quite eventful. I got stranded with the kids yesterday, but that comes with being a sibling. Especially the big sister. I love them, though - no matter how they drive me mad. I enjoyed our time together yesterday, it makes me happy to be able to watch them grow so well. Had a date last night with Him - and that made the rest of the day irrelevant. Yeah, he's like that.

Anywhoo - I've got to recap my "summer break" thus far - the weather in NY has been wonderful! I've been able to wear Bermuda shorts and sandals this weekend - I guess this is a precursor to what NY summer's actually going to look like. If it is - I foresee a zoooo!! 

We celebrated Jaz's bday last weekend - and we were out in rare form. Legs were out, and the booties were inevitable. I appreciate the fact that we can go out and party as ladies, and still come home as ladies. Too many times have I watched girls walk in looking classy, and walk out with their assy - showing.

I get the legs from my momma...

We spent the weekend dancing - my favorite form of stress relief. Well, second favorite. Had a couple drinks and a good time. Definitely lots of laughs. I remember the days when Jaz had never even had a drink - now she's the heavyweight of the crew. I'm just glad she enjoyed herself...

Night One:

"She don't gossip - she just buy sh*t. All the new gear Rihanna rocks on Bossip..."

If I could speak on the adventure of Jaz's dress, lol - let's just say the tailor had his work cut out for him. Pun intended. Fit like a Martian glove.

Gone.com by the end of the night...

Stay tuned for Part Deux...

My Life: According to Me - Summer, Summertime!!

So, summer is fast approaching - and it's almost time for me to make my annual journey to my Mecca - NYC. I decided to take my three week vacation and spend a portion of it back home. I miss the kids, I miss my friends, and of course - I miss Him. It's been two weeks since we've been together and it sucks. I can't believe I sound like such a mush! The way he's been making me feel when I'm around him is something I can't describe. I've been real stressed over a few things, but when we're together, all I can do is laugh and smile. The phone just isn't enough sometimes, well - it just isn't enough. The time spans apart are getting more difficult to deal with lately, too. Not to mention, we had a blast last time I was home. As much as I'd love to post pics, I'm gonna leave those in the private collection. {{Heheh}} Granted, there are some rough moments out there, but I think things will pan out just fine... 

My siblings are getting so grown up as the months go by, and I feel like I've been absent for so much of it. Every time I get home, there's something new going on. BabySister is talking a mile a minute, BabyBrother's standing up and learning how to walk - LittleSister is always doing something new - I just bought her a cell phone before I left. Naturally, she used up all the minutes before the week ended. LittleBrother (see photo) is grown, lol - I had a real heartfelt discussion with him the other night, and I had to admit to myself that he's actually gonna be 21 this year. How time flies... 

I'm going to use this summer to truly find myself. I thought I'd done this part of my life already - but now that so much has changed, I realize I never really did it at all. Jaz and I will be road tripping, the family is planning a getaway, and I'll be spending time with my girls in Miami soon enough. I just need to enjoy myself - without feeling like I have to take care of anyone, or follow after them. This summer will be about MY growth as Kim. I've got to get back to the old me; the happy, energetic, smiling me. It's gonna take some work, some drinks, and some laughs - definitely some tears. I think it's an attainable goal, life is my thing!! I've got concerts to go to, people to see, fears to get over, love to make ((smile))... 

Let's see how it all plays out... 

Until next time, people! 

{{Spoke - N - Heard}} "Freaquency"

Walkin' up on me like you really think you know me,

Is there something that you'd like to show me?

Ain't lookin like the type for fitted jeans and tight vests, but
Boy you packin like you work for UPS

You say you the best -
Well, let me put you to the test
Swing right - swing left
Can you handle what the rest -
Couldn't?

Wouldn't, shouldn't - let a Joe Shmo touch me
Huh? What the rush be -
Take it slow, must see

How you operate -
Is it really great?
Cuz you got these birdies flockin' like
You opened up the chicken gate, like
Farmer Brown
You say you want this pretty round -
Thang
All up on me in the club, tryna sang

Alright - you wanna play?
Then I'ma swing it this a-way
That a-way, make it sway
Got ya homeboys sayin
OWW!

Pow, wow - what a surprise
Had to look you in ya eyes so
You know what's 'tween my thighs
Ain't for you

I spun to walk away, but you beggin for more
Turned around, looked down -
You did WHAT up on the dance floor??

((You might wanna fix that...))


 - K!m@n!

[[Strawberry Letter]] Kids, Kondoms and Kutting...

Happy Earth Day everyone! I was listening to Steve Harvey this morning, and a gentleman had some other seeds he was trying to sow...


So, the Strawberry Letter today was from a dude who had a "slight" dilemma. He has been with his lady for five years, they live together and have a child together. She also had a child from a previous relationship. He stressed the fact that he was not interested in having a child together. While he's not looking to be a dad again, he also wrote that he likes the feel of 'going natural,' and does not use condoms when they have intercourse. Okay. 


Wait - there's more. 


So, he brings on the fact that he is currently in school because he cannot find a job, and his girlfriend is a part-time worker at a day-care center. Her Medicaid has run out, and she is no longer able to afford her Depo (Provera) shot. In laymen's terms  he's broke and they can't afford birth control. She likes to have sex a lot, and actually DOES want a child. His question to Steve was, "What would you do?" 

Many of the callers suggested a vasectomy. Basically, it's a quick surgical procedure where a doctor cuts the 'vas' under the penis, rendering the man unable to produce sperm sufficient enough to impregnate a woman. It's permanent, and often emasculating to men, which is why many of them choose not to do it. In his case, though - what is another option?


The girlfriend obviously can't afford to support the household and pay for birth control. A pack of Yaz without insurance is $80! I can imagine how much the Depo should be, you actually have to have it administered to you by a medical professional. Since he doesn't want to sacrifice the pleasure of raw-dogging his girlfriend - he'd rather run the risk of impregnating her again - and bringing a child into the world that they cannot afford. 


Or should she get a hysterectomy or tie her tubes? That always seems to be the solution for the world's problems. 


I just feel like, he's not taking her feelings and well being into consideration. It's just as simple as buying a $12 economy pack of condoms like everyone else should be doing. Shoot, those Ecstasy ones by Trojan are pretty darn awesome. Well, so I hear. Not to mention - they are struggling to make ends meet as it is - can you really afford that kind of mistake? It's unfair to the children to bring them into this world and not have the resources to take care of them. 


I just can't understand why a compromise can't be met here. The chips are obviously down - so there's one inexpensive solution - wrap it up! 

[[Spoke-N-Heard]] "Audubon Flower..."

She's got,
A pretty little lotus - you can call it Elise
One touch of her flower - might bring you down to your knees
The beauty of her petals can make grown men cry
Yet she keeps her petals closed,
Do you ever wonder why?


The elevation of her aura
Keeps her lily floating on water
To a boy, it's just a flower
But to a man who's thinking smarter,
She's a precious work of art
One that only God provides
And while the petals are plucked on others
Safely her lotus resides
At the center of her pond
Beauty still sustained
And until that prince arrives
Right there it shall remain


 ((04-22-10)) Love, Kimi... 
P.S. - Happy Earth Day! 

[[Turn It Up Tuesday]]: Ciara feat. Ludacris - "Ride"

Ciara is truly an expert at the dance movement. For an American girl - she sure can wine! G'awn head and enjoy, ladies and gentlemen. The beat rides hard, glad to see she's coming back with some hits...

((Spoke-N-Heard)) Ayana Ellis' - "Who I Gosta Be?"

"Who I Gosta Be?"

Shar

 Today at 8:47am

What I gotta do?
Who I gosta be?
so that you can look deep inside of my dreams
not of houses and riches but something more
like kisses when I walk thru the door
understanding of my past and why other loves didn't last
knowledge of today's world and why most women act like girls
why some men choose the state penn over steak and kicking gems
to beautiful sisters like me, and her, and my sister, and my homies and my mom
c'mon
What I gotta do for you to not think your fancy car
or your watch is gonna get you a notch
I mean its nice
but so is my life
who I gosta be
to get you to be a part of me and see
that I need
Roses
and soft kisses on my noses
open car doors for me
before you open these thighs
can you at least open my eyes
to the kind of man you are?
this passion that lies deep down
is something so sweet so sound
know what your getting into
its something you can't get out of
but it happened so fast that
all you want is ass
and when your done,
I'm no longer the one
you said that I was
you said word to your son?
or daughter
or dead god brother or father...
Ugh
What do we have to do
I'm speaking for the ladies not the bitches
the women and the sisters
to the gentlemen and misters
Who do we have to be
to get flowers
and brought home at decent hours
smiling while in the shower
scrubbing every part of my body except for my forehead
which is where you placed your lips
shortly before I was dismissed
to have sweet dreams of seeing you again
my borderline friend
Where do we have to go
to find the men that know
how to treat a lady
that knows the difference between the sunshine
and a betch whose shady
frontin like she aint about the pay day
but no longer wants to date you when you don't buy her something on
pay day..
What I gotta do to find a man well dressed
smelling of anything but sex
a man that's simple yet complex
Where can we find the truth?
you know that powerful man
that doesn't just love us when he can
but loves us on demand
so much loving that we can't stand
so much truth from his roots
dressed in jeans or in a suit
praying he appears just like...
POOF!
The hardest of woman shares my sentiments
but all she knows how do to is be intimate
nothing more to offer
so he doesn't want to be bother
and now she's scorned
cause she thought her sex can hold 'em
lying there..pussy swollen
tears hard and strong she cant control 'em
good sex can't control him
Who do we have to be to get taught
and not bought
hugged, kissed and swayed
not fucked, dissed and played
Where is that man so into God
that he finds the God in me
where's that romance of "soon as I saw you girl
I knew you were my wife to be"
Is romance dead? is it all in my head?
Can't even pick me up a rose
but wanna pick me up and put me in your bed?
Wanna date me in my house
never wanna take me out
Only call once a week
when you want to get up in my sheets?
Longing for the day that no longer do men wanna play
but stay and ask me "baby is everything okay?"
Back rubs on park benches
subtle kisses in the car
flirting with me, though we came together
you send me a drink from across the bar
laying on our backs on the grass
making love under the stars
Introducing yourself to my mother
no matter how grown we are......
Who I gosta be?

© 2010 by Ayana Ellis

Ayana - you have got to be one of the most passionate writers I know. I see you doin so many big things in your future - shoot, in your present! I am happy for you, and honored to know you. Reading your words is like pouring my own thoughts out of my ear and onto paper. I write, but you - you WRITE. You are a true master of the craft, and I love and respect your work. Can't wait to see what's next. 

Please keep doin your thing - and I am your street team whenever you need me! 

Crown Royal - On Ice...

The answer at the bottom of the bottle -
     Is only a fallacy
Let me be your drink - 
    Quench your thirst
I'm all you need for true intoxication.


Take a sip of this -
    Let your body relax
Lady Royal will put your mind at ease
    Gaze into these cognac eyes
Just let me... 


   - Kimi