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I tell you the most random things happen to me on a daily basis...

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So, I went to work to give Michael his birthday gift, and ended up staying longer than expected. On my way out, though, a young woman stopped me as I was speed-walking past her (NY style). She said to me,

"Excuse me, I'm a psychic, and I feel a lot of energy coming off you. You have very powerful eyes, and a positive attitude. You try to be positive at all times, but there are jealous people around you that make it hard for you to maintain..."

At this point, you know I was already flabbergasted - but then she floored me with this:
"Would you like to sit down and talk? There are a few things in your love life that have you confused right now."

What?

Can you really see all that by looking into my eyes? Damn.

Here I am thinking I give off a whole 'nother vibe, well, at least I've been trying to, anyway. I guess eyes truly are windows to the soul. I've always been curious about the paranormal and stuff, but I've never really fed into psychics and horoscopes and all that. I've always felt that horoscopes were too vague or too general, although lately they have been pretty accurate with how my life has been going. I think we tend to apply horoscopes to our lives in whatever way we can. This lady, though - doesn't know me, has never spoken to me before - yet she chose me to speak to. Out of all the people shopping in the store, she chose me to read.

In my family, we have people who see spirits and such. Call it what you want, Obia, Santeria, Vudu - whatever - but it's a God given gift that some of us possess. I know I have a talent for reading people's personalities, but it takes at least a few hours for me to feel someone out. This happening left me shook - and that rarely happens to me. I told her I had to go, and bee lined it for my car. I had to take a deep breath and drive off, because I know I don't need an analysis of my life right now. That would probably break me down completely.

I have spent the last few hours thinking about what she said. And it's true. I try so hard to uplift everyone and stay happy myself, but there's always someone giving me the evil eye from behind my back. And I feel it, trust me, I do. I know exactly who each person is - whether they know it or not. Regardless of that, I try to steer away from them, but they seem to gravitate towards me - and if it's not one person, it's another. Hate has just been coming out the woodwork lately. I refuse to allow it to phase me, though - at least not publicly. Cuz as soon as I sat down at this table, I felt the tears stinging the backs of my eyes.

And my love life - hmph. I don't even know what that is right now. I'll spare you the details of that, but let's just say there seems to be an invisible chastity belt strapped to my hips right now - who knows who put it there or when it arrived. I'm definitely confused about a lot of things in that area right now, but I'm too afraid to approach it and figure out what's what. I remain in limbo, with two AA batteries and a pink butterfly. I'll leave that to be deciphered.

To be honest, I really have nothing uplifting to say to myself. I'm not really sure what I'm doing with my emotions right now. I've been hiding them under my pillow for the past few months - and I guess I'm ready to unwrap them now. I get up in the morning and pray next to my bed, but my prayers are mostly for the people in my life. All I ask for is health, strength, and people who love me. I guess it's time to start looking for more.